On going feud...

OMG,I wrote a HUGE long post thanking you all and saying how I got through on the phone to dr neill himself and he was so kind and helpful,he suggested sevral things without being judgemental.I respec thim so much,he has lost kids to alchohol related illnesses and he aproaches each matter I presnted with a calm,rational and helpful and thoughtful response.I was stunned that I got him on the phone and not some assistant or answering service.Anyway.I adressed ALL of your recent responses but it took me a long time to write,and I have to go and make kiddy dinner in a minute.but I just wanted to say,my hubby is not a monster,I feel guilty for making it sound so bad when we have such good times.But I thank you all for your ongoing support,kind words and loyalty to someone you havnt met in person,you are all so sweet.I feel so bad for making a huge deal out of this.I just feel so much better when I write it all down.I really appreciate you all taking the time to repsond,even as it's hard to know what to say so thanks girls I love you all and you mean so much to me



I now have some more info for hubby to go through.I hope to talk to him tongiht but he is having a hard day with some server problem,if he's not too tired then I will,but he didnt' sleep last night so we'll see.

Also,he wants to go to MIL"s house tommorow night.My dad n brother are coming to stay from the UK next thurs,we don't have beds,there are still boxes everywhere and I have SO much to do,taking 2-3 days off to visit seems pretty bad idea to me right now,plus it feels like we just got back and I don't want to have to go to the house where MIL smokes all the time (despite repeated requets from hubby for her to do it outside while we stay there) and 6 of us sleeping in a 2 bed house,the worst being the 4 hour drive,which leaving later on the way is not a HUGE deal but leaving earlier on the way back (coz hubby doesnt want to get back at midnight) caused the baby to nap for an hour and scream pretty much the rest of the way back.SO,I know I'll get grief for it,but I think I'll just have to stay this time,get things ready,have my dad and brother here and then when they're gone.Have a weekend over there.I wish wish wish they would come here but they'll find an excuse not to...dogs/cat ("Ive looked into dog sitting /walking it's $27 a day not expensive and they dont have to pay for a hotel) we specifically got the bathroom downstair with gma in mind,and it's a LOT less hard for them to drive 4 hours as it is for me to mobilise our small family,all the packing and crap we have to bring is ridiculous!

Anyway..sorry to bitch about unrelated stuff,bet it seems like all I do is complain lately,sorry!

hugs xxxxxxxxxxxx

OK,well we have spoken again last night about many of our issues and it seems at last and at least for now,things have calmed down and we are back to being 'us' Phew!