*For Beth*

What's happened??? I think I have missed something extremely vital?

Beth, honey there is nothing at all I can say right now that will mend your broken heart, all I can say is that I am deeply sorry to hear your news,I know that the result you have been given is devastating and right now you have lost all your faith in conceiving naturally but I have to tell you about a real life story I saw only yesterday on Home and Health (a channel I have just started watching) there is a programme called Extreme Pregnancies and a woman on there aged about 42/43 had the same test and her results basically showed that she was not only going through the menopause she was almost over it, her test was simular to what a 70 year old women would get. They told her that she could only conceive via IVF and donar eggs he sister stepped in and offered her eggs just before the appointment for the eggs to be taken, this lady did a pregnancy test and amazingly she was pregnant, naturally!! I don't know whether you want to hear stories like this just yet so I will apologise now BUT I had felt I had to tell you because her story is so simular to yours.
Big hugs for you Beth {{hugs}} x x x

Beth my darling, I have just seen your post on AHW. I am just so truly sorry, and I want you to know you are in my thoughts, and that I understand that you have received bad news, but doctors don't know everything, and miracles happen everyday. I want you to know, that I have a dear friend who is a bit older than my mom. She adopted 3 boys, she was told that she would never be able to have children because she just didn't ovulate. She conceived her daughter when she was 39, and she was not trying for a baby. I know that doesn't make things any easier, but I wanted to try.

Thinking of you, and sending you hugs!!!! ((((BETH))))

Awww,me too.I am sending you huge hugs.PLease know that you are loved and missed here and we anxiously await the return of our Bethy!love you!please take your time to do whatever you need to feel better.I am sorry!xxx

I've written elsewhere but wanted to say again how much you are in my thoughts and prayers, and how saying I'm sorry doesn't even come close to how awful I feel that this was the news you heard. I too am hoping that a second opinion will reveal something different and/or that a miracle will happen ... whatever happens, I will pray you'll find peace and comfort. And know that you are never alone in this.

Beth, I have just read your update on AWH and I just wanted to remind you of my friend who was on 50mg of clomid, no luck that cycle so they upped it to 100mg BUT she took the 50 and the 100 together and fell pregnant that cycle! I'd say go for it!!!! It's worth a try.....right??

Awwww, thank you all so much! I don't think I would be able to make it through all this without all of my loving online friends.

I'm feeling more positive today. Still mulling everything over, pondering, wondering, trying to gain perspective, trying to decide what's important to know, what's important to pursue. My doctors have failed to give me answers; my new RE has failed to provide The Plan that he promised. So I'll just have develop my own plan instead. Well actually, God's plan, right? I just need to figure out what path(s) that is.

Bethy, just focus on the end result, and the path will fall into place, I promise. Picture yourself at the end result, hold onto that happiness and fulfillment that it brings, and your footsteps will be guided.

xxxxxxx

My thinking changes a bit everyday. Still want to give it one last good shot with the Clomid I've been hoarding -- hoping to supplement it with soy, herbs, accunpuncture, something, just not sure what yet.

Printed out some adoption stuff tonight and asked hubby to look through it. I've told him more than once lately that he needs to be more involved, that I can't do this without more of his support.

Today I typed up a David Letterman style Top 10 list of Why It's Better (for me) to Adopt Rather than Become Pregnant. I see it as part of the healing/acceptance process.

Still pissed at my supposedly great doctor though.

Awe, hey Bethy...I'm glad you're keeping a positive attitude.
And like the others have said, just keep working at it, you may be suprised someday.
My thoughts are with you.